Deserving?...Uh....No.

I sat in a camp meeting service a couple of years ago and heard Tim Hill Preach. He had just been elected as secretary general for the church of God. As he preached, he talked about how he didn't know how he was chosen and why he was chosen... he was honored but he admitted that he was still shocked that he was chosen. I sat there and thought, "Come on!!! you know why you were chosen! It's no mystery!"
As i type this, I realize what he meant. Last Friday I was elected to the Ca/Nv State council for the Church of God. I was the 10th man chosen to serve my church on this council. Once I got past the exhilaration of being chosen, I began to look around and saw men that I began to imagine would do a better job than me. men who have pastored when I was in my mothers' womb. men who have sacrificed more. men who deserve it more. there was a touch of embarrassment. I had people congratulating me telling me "I deserve it"...... Thank you but..... deserve it?.... really? And Gram Bell doesn't? Bud mayabb doesn't? Rod Richie doesn't? E.N Cope doesn't? Johnny Taylor Doesn't? James Harper Doesn't? Any other man who has served faithfully doesn't? Thank you but I don't deserve anything. How did I get chosen?" I didn't pass out campaign buttons. I didn't run a smear campaign. I didn't accuse any other minister of having William Ayers in their living room when they were called into the ministry :) Why me?
My answer.... I still don't know. And as I read my last post that I posted a couple of months ago I have to remember that it is God that calls. I can spend the next 2 years with my head down in some sort of false humility or I can Trust Him and just do my job.